Kissesinthebackyard

It's rotting.... MY BLOG IS ROTTING. I SEE SIPDER WEBS AROUND.. LOL!

I'm so busy that I dont have the damn time to bring my laptop for repair. Everyday I reached home late, as late as 11pm. I have got no fucking time to waste, srsly. ):

A week ago, my auntie bought a pup! It's adorable. And funny thing is that I volunteered to take care of him. Reason being because I LOVE DOGS. Right now, Teto is the top of my list and nothing else.

I met my girlfriends for movie last night since it was friday and I didnt have anywhere to go. Caught "Backup Plan", it was a great movie :) Spending time together, the bond gets closer and nothing could ever break us apart. I'd always loved talking to them. We have our own lifes to lead now that we're all grown ups but making time for one another when we have nothing to do :) We see each other through ups and downs, lefts and rights and sooo many more. I can never imagine life wthout them, my girlfriends.

J promised me to bring me to Resort world this coming June! Rejoice!!!!

Behind every strong girl, there will be an arsehole who made her that way. I'm not saying that he is an arsehole. I meant that if he didnt leave, I would not be this strong. It was a right choice. (he was just passing by my life.) I'm not regretting anything, no I AM NOT.

My laptop is screw. I needa get down to toshiba to fixed it. argh! waste my time.

Recently, so much has happened, so much. I feel like running away from everything. work and friends, just everything. feel like I needa break. I've pushing myself too hard. I needa breathe. Esp when my dear lunch khaki, Yeni, is hospitalised. Dennis, just had a surgery for an old injury. Cat, is leaving for the better. Elsie and me is so worried on how things are going to turn out.

How can I make myself feel better? Besides meeting up for dinner or bitching sessions with my biatch and the girls, I've been visiting the gym very frequently. All thanks to my horny babe I got in free through VIP! :) & I wna party but, I'm just not in the best of mood right now.

I need to sleep.

I NEED A FUCKING BREAK.

This whole week I was busy. I kept myself as busy as I could cus yknow, when I'm free, stupid things will start appearing in my mind (LIKE NOW).

Monday, hit gym with Germaine. Finally really workout after sucha a long time, tired much but fun.

Tuesday, went back home for dinner.

Wednesday, I met jam and vivien at bugis for bitching sessions. Fries jokes ftw :)))))

Thursday, was supposed to go Kaplan to sign up for my course. but it was raining heavily. So decided not to go. Hk cafe at PS with Jamie and Julianna. had 2 ice blast. POP the neh neh pok!!! heh.

Friday, Xinhui treated me to Sakae Sushi & I treated her to starbucks. thanks babe.

Saturday. Went for tan at Palawan Beach with my dear girl. Bought breakfast there to eat. the sun was amazingly sunny, but Jamie says she's melting so we left after that and realised we only spend an hour there. Not really tanned, but I can still see my tan lines. :) went back Vicocity to get teeshirts for ourselves. ^^ headed to bugis & town. Met up with min jj ting and sr. had dinner at JustAcia. Wasn't very hungry then so Jam and I shared a meal. spend the rest of our time talking & smoking outside Ps. home sweet home.

I can't deny that I really love the life that I'm having now, but on the other hand it's also good if you had that special someone to be there too, no? Looking at my girlfriends happy faces kinda reminds me of you, it reminds me of our happy times together. I told my girlfriends I don't wanna like/love another again. Because I don't wanna get hurt again, and partly because I think I still have this special thing for you. I don't know. This feeling is mixed.

WHAT SHOULD I DO?!

ANYONE CAN ASK ME ANYTHING NOW!! :))) See the new widget at the side?

Time check : 8:48 AM

Mum called in the morng and said "we're not going anymore. you father is so unreasonable" SO YES. I'm stayg at home for now. I'm so tired but I can't sleep because I'm having contacts on. Maybe later when I'm feelg more sleepy I will go to bed. Lol.

Yesterday's great!!!!!! :)

Messing up his life isn't the best revenge. It's getting on with yours and living it to the fullest.

Sibei chio right the lashes. :) I will do a proper update tmr, I need to sleep now cus I need to go pray tmr and must be up at 730am! Sighs. not enough sleep. And fuck sia, having gastric at this hour.

PS : I just sympathise for your new girlfriend, W. She still don't know what kind of guy you're. Well, love is blind. & I was blinded once before. Lesson learnt.

 PICTURE REMOVED.

I have a new hairdo! I'm so loving it btw. just that it's just shorter by a whole lot. But I got into ofc and received many positive comments about it which makes my day! And I loathe the current weather. It rains but it's so freaking warm. Zzz. This week I was very occupied with stuffs, and fucking fuck, no programs on friday.

And I wna laugh so hard at myself for being sucha fool. I was at a ATM wanting to withdraw some money and I was rushing home. I kept trying and trying until I ask the person behind to go first. and than I realised I inserted it the wrong way! ): So much for having the new debit card when I don't even know which way to insert the damn card. laugh all you want! ):

The only thing about tmr that I'm looking forward to, is shoppinnnnnggggggggg. ok bye.

You don’t have to be bold or certain to be brave. You don’t have to have all the answers here, or even know who you want to be. Just take my hand, and rest your heart, and stay awhile with me.

Time passes quite fast. It's been days. Thanks for those who are concern. I'm back on my feet, bcause I know crying won't help and no more tears anymore.  Life's pretty good for now just that I'm the only one thats not attach, and it just feels so weird. oh and the scrap book, I've gotten rid of it. Can't believe I spent over a hundred bucks on it yet I didnt really give it to him. Nah, I'm not regretting anything. Oh well. Anyway had a new hairdo for me! 4 hours in the salon after work. Defintely worth the time. Most imptly, no more implusive hairdos anymore.

I don't know if I still love him anymore if you'd asked. But I definitely miss him, the everyday texts and so on. Time changes everything. Good night.

My life is in a great mess! I need a major retail therapy so I could stay happy for that moment. I didn't expect myself to initiate the breakup today. And thats the only way out, to keep us away from those unwanted problems. I guess it'll do us better although I really can't bear to part with him. I'm still very much in love with him. I'm so brave to delete the memories in my phone. I wonder if I should throw away that scrap book too? I don know. Sometimes I feel like a failure. I can't seem to get things right. sighz. I can't even keep him until I turn old and saggy. Min told me, You just havent found the right one yet. True.

What done is already done. I just wna focused more on my life now. I'll keep myself as busy as possible. Get inked. do crazy stuffs, get back to social life. get drunk with the girls. NO LAH SIAO. Just saying :x & why are there many sad songs playg on the radio now. ):

Guess what? I miss your, FUUUYOOOOOHHHH

I can't exactly remember what took place. But the trip to Taiwan was meant for us to get better. But in fact, it got worst. But I thought I would be able to forget him and get over this fast. No, it wasnt easy at all. This morning I woke up and told myself today's a brand new day, a brand new start for myself. I can't help but teared again. Knowing that I couldn't receive any morng text from him again. I was devastated. Those fucking tears just can't fucking stop. I didn't knew life without him would be sucha pain. The pain when someone you love leaves you. The pain I felt it before but since you came it disappear. Drama as it sounds, but very true. I.just.can't.live.without.you.

My 3 awesome girls; the best of the best. They met up with me today, knowing I need someone to talk, someone to talk my heart out. If I'm not wrong. this is the second time they see me go through this painful process. They were definitely my pillars of strength. Thank you so much gilfriends for being there. I love you three many <3.

& I'm happy/glad to say everythgs fine now. Thanks to those who were really concern. :) Appreciated alot. and shall start bloggin abt taiwan. not everything, just the pictures.

This is the amt of things I bought, just on the 1st day!!!!!

@ shilin night market. are you wondering what are they queueing up for??

Here, for this : XXXXXXL Chicken! FUCKING AWESOME.

Whats even awesome is this: we had this every morning because the hotel's breakfast suck ttm, but we were never tired of it!

We visited Taipei 101! the view was fucking breathe taking! :)

Another night market where we had dinner, Huaxi Night Market. awesome ribs noodles.

Bubble tea stall that you can find every 10 steps. there's one that near out hotel and it's muthafucking awesome.

and us before headg to the Taipei Zoo. The entrance is mad cheap. only 3 bucks!!

AND SO MUCH MORE. I will try to upload in fb tmr. :) Here's one last picture.

It doesn’t make sense to let go of something you had for so long, but it doesn’t make sense to hold on when nothing’s there too. We're looking good together. But no, there wont be anything anymore.

Taiwan was good. The street food were somehow awesome. The night market for shopping is da best! :) have got so many stuffs that I dont even have enough cash to spend. I ain't going to elaborate everything. I'm gon blog abt it when I feel better.

It just hurt so bad. But theres nothing I could do to change the situation. I thought I would be stronger. But no, I was wrong. I find it so hard just to get back on my feet again. I guess time heals all, for you and for me. This 8 months we had, was.fucking.awesome. thanks for coming into my life & for everything we had. I love you A. Goodbye.